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Friday I left early from work, and doug and I went out to lunch. We met up to talk. He said that he didn't cheat on me. He was just friends with the girl, and that he was sorry he had lied about sleeping with her but it had only been one time and before we started dating. I told him that I didn't trust him. There was so much evidence against him and I saw things the way they seemed. Somehow we talked things through, and I apologized for reacting the way I did. Blocking in their car and not moving mine so he could go back to work. But I said that I wouldn't apologize for thinking he was cheating on me. I told him that trust was a big problem with us, and that he had to earn it back. When he left he kissed me and told me how much he missed me. I went out clubbing with one of my girlfriends that night and he went out to the clubs too with his co-workers. When I left the clubs around 2pm, I had a message from him saying he wanted me to come over.
I went over to his house, and climbed into bed with him. We had some pretty amazing sex. I won't even call it sex. We kissed and kissed for what seemed like hours. I just wrapped my arms around him to pull him as close as I could and kept on kissing him. It made it seem - more meaningful. The way we kissed - as if we might never kiss again and were trying to memorize the taste of each other.
Afterward we lay next to each other and I slept in his arms.
We didn't spend much of the next day together, but he called me later that night to come over, and I did. It was- to my surprise to find out he was hanging out with two girls (about 18 and 19 yrs old). They had all gotten into the hot tub and were eating pizza. They thought I was Doug's roommate's girlfriend. I almost passed out. To be honest, I was incredibly pissed off that he ahd spent the day with them, and they had been watching Chloe - who has gotten soooo big in the whole week I haven't seen her. But I got to talking to them, and it turns out one was the daughter of his co-worker and the other her friend. perhaps they thought to hook up with him or something, but then they were like - how do you know Doug? And I told them he was my ex. And when they left - I stayed. And its not like Doug acted like he didn't want me there. he was making a big move by inviting me over. His argument was that he could never have me over when his friends who are girls are over because he acts different and I would try to prove he was mine. This was his way of showing me nothing was going on and that he was trying. I realized that, but I was still not happy that he had been in the hot tub with them. But then - she was the daughter of a co-worker, and they were from Rhoade Island and just visiting her mom for spring break. So - there wasn't anything going on. Just him being his nice, usual charming self. And Doug was calling me Baby and stuff, and I don't know where they got the idea that I was house's girlfriend, because they saw me put my bag in doug's room, and if I asked a question, it was always to doug, and I took Chloe out (doug's dog) to the backyard the moment I came over. I figure he didn't tell them he was inviting someone over and they just assumed i was with House not Doug, even though it was obvious I was there for Doug. But it still irked me that he was in the hot tub with them. One of them was pretty, so i can only imagine he was ike oh yeah.
I stayed again that night and we had sex in the morning, and it was great. he went shopping at Best Buy and I watched the dog while he was out. Then we ate at Golden Corral *yuck*, and came back to the house to hook up the small fridge he bought and figure out the mp3 maker he bought so we could upload songs to our phones. I left around 5pm because I didn't want to wear out my welcome. He called to say he was having a good time with me, and didn't want me to leave. But I said I thought it would be for the best, so he wouldn't get tired of me. The games we play. *sigh* He thought I was leaving because I had a date or something, but I told him he had nothing to worry about. Earlier on Sunday I had asked him what we were doing. He knew I meant : what exactly are we? Because we hadn't talked about getting back together or anything. he said we should hang out for a couple of days, see how things go and then discuss it after that. I agreed but How exactly do I bring it up again? I don't want to pressure him, but neither do I want to be friends with benefits. We need to be b/f and g/f. There's no other way for us to continue on.
He called me Sunday night, saying he wanted me to come over and stay the night, but I had already went to bed. he said he woke up and called out for me, but then remembered I wasn't there, so he called me. I thought that was really sweet.
We went to lunch today, and I don't think we are seeing each other tonight because he's taking out his friend for his bday. He just turned 21.
But most likely he'll call me to come over and stay. Things have been going well, but who knows what that means.
I went over to his house, and climbed into bed with him. We had some pretty amazing sex. I won't even call it sex. We kissed and kissed for what seemed like hours. I just wrapped my arms around him to pull him as close as I could and kept on kissing him. It made it seem - more meaningful. The way we kissed - as if we might never kiss again and were trying to memorize the taste of each other.
Afterward we lay next to each other and I slept in his arms.
We didn't spend much of the next day together, but he called me later that night to come over, and I did. It was- to my surprise to find out he was hanging out with two girls (about 18 and 19 yrs old). They had all gotten into the hot tub and were eating pizza. They thought I was Doug's roommate's girlfriend. I almost passed out. To be honest, I was incredibly pissed off that he ahd spent the day with them, and they had been watching Chloe - who has gotten soooo big in the whole week I haven't seen her. But I got to talking to them, and it turns out one was the daughter of his co-worker and the other her friend. perhaps they thought to hook up with him or something, but then they were like - how do you know Doug? And I told them he was my ex. And when they left - I stayed. And its not like Doug acted like he didn't want me there. he was making a big move by inviting me over. His argument was that he could never have me over when his friends who are girls are over because he acts different and I would try to prove he was mine. This was his way of showing me nothing was going on and that he was trying. I realized that, but I was still not happy that he had been in the hot tub with them. But then - she was the daughter of a co-worker, and they were from Rhoade Island and just visiting her mom for spring break. So - there wasn't anything going on. Just him being his nice, usual charming self. And Doug was calling me Baby and stuff, and I don't know where they got the idea that I was house's girlfriend, because they saw me put my bag in doug's room, and if I asked a question, it was always to doug, and I took Chloe out (doug's dog) to the backyard the moment I came over. I figure he didn't tell them he was inviting someone over and they just assumed i was with House not Doug, even though it was obvious I was there for Doug. But it still irked me that he was in the hot tub with them. One of them was pretty, so i can only imagine he was ike oh yeah.
I stayed again that night and we had sex in the morning, and it was great. he went shopping at Best Buy and I watched the dog while he was out. Then we ate at Golden Corral *yuck*, and came back to the house to hook up the small fridge he bought and figure out the mp3 maker he bought so we could upload songs to our phones. I left around 5pm because I didn't want to wear out my welcome. He called to say he was having a good time with me, and didn't want me to leave. But I said I thought it would be for the best, so he wouldn't get tired of me. The games we play. *sigh* He thought I was leaving because I had a date or something, but I told him he had nothing to worry about. Earlier on Sunday I had asked him what we were doing. He knew I meant : what exactly are we? Because we hadn't talked about getting back together or anything. he said we should hang out for a couple of days, see how things go and then discuss it after that. I agreed but How exactly do I bring it up again? I don't want to pressure him, but neither do I want to be friends with benefits. We need to be b/f and g/f. There's no other way for us to continue on.
He called me Sunday night, saying he wanted me to come over and stay the night, but I had already went to bed. he said he woke up and called out for me, but then remembered I wasn't there, so he called me. I thought that was really sweet.
We went to lunch today, and I don't think we are seeing each other tonight because he's taking out his friend for his bday. He just turned 21.
But most likely he'll call me to come over and stay. Things have been going well, but who knows what that means.
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